The End of Guilt (#12)
Once upon a time there was a spiritual seeker named Jiva. After trying many different ways to become pure and holy and attain enlightenment, he had gained a great degree of self-control. He was no longer blindly reactive to the actions of people, places and things he came in contact with. Nor did he squander energy with unnecessary physical or mental tension. Selflessness and humility had replaced greed and egoism and thus he spared himself any of the suffering that is the automatic result of those behaviors. And yet, Jiva still felt uneasiness within himself. Despite being able to experience states of bliss while sitting in meditation, he recognized that there was a sense of desperation deep inside that even feelings of ecstasy and glorious visions couldn’t dissipate.
Recognizing his need for help, Jiva journeyed to see his teacher, Moksha. After reaching his destination and being warmly welcomed, he proceeded to tell of his frustration, anxiety, and how this made him feel that he was a spiritual failure. Moksha at once knew the cause and cure of his student’s problem. “My beloved Jiva, you have attained great things. You have understood what actions are beneficial and which are not, and on a conscious level, no longer do those things that diminish your serenity and well being. Your problem is a very common one and is on a subconscious level. You are suffering from feelings of guilt and unworthiness. This comes from identifying with an illusionary vision of who you are. Long ago you were told you had to act in certain ways and believe in things that you no longer do.
For instance, it was impressed on you that if you didn’t sit exactly the way you were taught was proper in first grade, you were being “a bad boy”. Similarly, you were expected to believe in Santa Claus and were led to believe that this and other fairy tales were the basis of whether you would find life enjoyable. As a matter of fact, you were taught that many of your actions were “sins” and would doom you to hell for eternity. There were also times in your life that your actions caused pain or suffering to others and are proper to regret and never repeat. You have kept these things within you and have never dealt with them. Much like someone who has a tooth that looks white and healthy on the outside but has an abscess within, you have a need for spiritual dentistry to cleanse the dis-ease process within you.” Moksha then taught Jiva the End of Guilt meditation technique. Jiva sat in meditation and soon purged himself of all subconscious feelings of guilt. He then realized the purity, wisdom, and bliss of his infinite, eternal Real Self, and lived happily ever after.
The End of Guilt Meditation Technique:
Sit in the position of comfort that you have come to know is best for maintaining meditation. Relax your mind, body, and emotions. Attain a rhythm of effortless breathing. Refocus your attention on your breath if you get distracted from your meditation. In your mind’s eye, visualize your Deity. If it is one that has no human form, see the holy, infinite, all-powerful pure energy that represents the divine. If your Deity has a form, see it in as great detail as possible.
For instance, if it is in a human male form, see its body, face, hair, eyes, hands, robe, all, as clearly as you can. See yourself in front of and facing your Deity, in a sitting, standing, or prostrating position. Visualize yourself covered with many, many layers of ultra fine energy, much like the layers of skin on an onion. Each of these layers were created by the process of labeling your actions as sins. In reality, nothing you’ve ever done has been either “good” or “bad”. They have just been things that occurred in your life. If they could be labeled or judged, what they would be are opportunities to appreciate your universal identity and oneness with the divine. Misinformation and inappropriate conditioning has caused you to have the illusion that you have sinned by your physical, mental, or emotional actions and have acquired layers of negative energy that now cover and soil your pure Real Self.
Realize that with every breath you receive, the Highest Power, your Deity, sends you forgiveness and blessings. Know that every interaction you have had with anyone else that you may have thought caused them to suffer, had the potential to help them become a stronger person and evolve in consciousness. Most importantly, acknowledge that not everything you were conditioned to believe was a sin, was one, and that the conditioning itself may have been the sin.
See your Deity remove your guilt and convert your so-called sins into love. Visualize your guilt coatings melting off and the forgiveness and blessings of the Divine cleansing and healing the wounds and pain they caused. As they peel off, you may remember specific things that you have been carrying within your subconscious. Witness the events and the suffering they represent fade away and dissolve forever.
As the final layers are peeled away, you realize that there is nothing left within and thus no separation from the Deity who is all powerful, present infinitely and eternally, all knowing and all love. Just like a bird that has escaped its shell, with no more guilt to bind you, you are forever free to soar the heavens and swim in the universal ocean of bliss. And live happily ever after.