The End of Guilt (#12)
Once upon a time there was a spiritual seeker named Jiva.
After trying many different ways to become pure and holy and attain
enlightenment, he had gained a great degree of self-control. He was no
longer blindly reactive to the actions of people, places and things he
came in contact with. Nor did he squander energy with unnecessary
physical or mental tension. Selflessness and humility had replaced greed
and egoism and thus he spared himself any of the suffering that is the
automatic result of those behaviors. And yet, Jiva still felt uneasiness
within himself. Despite being able to experience states of bliss while
sitting in meditation, he recognized that there was a sense of
desperation deep inside that even feelings of ecstasy and glorious
visions couldn’t dissipate.
Recognizing his need for help, Jiva journeyed to see his
teacher, Moksha. After reaching his destination and being warmly
welcomed, he proceeded to tell of his frustration, anxiety, and how this
made him feel that he was a spiritual failure. Moksha at once knew the
cause and cure of his student’s problem. “My beloved Jiva, you have
attained great things. You have understood what actions are beneficial
and which are not, and on a conscious level, no longer do those things
that diminish your serenity and well being. Your problem is a very
common one and is on a subconscious level. You are suffering from
feelings of guilt and unworthiness. This comes from identifying with an
illusionary vision of who you are. Long ago you were told you had to act
in certain ways and believe in things that you no longer do.
For instance, it was impressed on you that if you didn’t sit
exactly the way you were taught was proper in first grade, you were
being “a bad boy”. Similarly, you were expected to believe in Santa
Claus and were led to believe that this and other fairy tales were the
basis of whether you would find life enjoyable. As a matter of fact, you
were taught that many of your actions were “sins” and would doom you to
hell for eternity. There were also times in your life that your actions
caused pain or suffering to others and are proper to regret and never
repeat. You have kept these things within you and have never dealt with
them. Much like someone who has a tooth that looks white and healthy on
the outside but has an abscess within, you have a need for spiritual
dentistry to cleanse the dis-ease process within you.” Moksha then
taught Jiva the End of Guilt meditation technique. Jiva sat in
meditation and soon purged himself of all subconscious feelings of
guilt. He then realized the purity, wisdom, and bliss of his infinite,
eternal Real Self, and lived happily ever after.
The End of Guilt Meditation Technique:
Sit in the position of comfort that you have come to know is
best for maintaining meditation. Relax your mind, body, and emotions.
Attain a rhythm of effortless breathing. Refocus your attention on your
breath if you get distracted from your meditation. In your mind’s eye,
visualize your Deity. If it is one that has no human form, see the holy,
infinite, all-powerful pure energy that represents the divine. If your
Deity has a form, see it in as great detail as possible.
For instance, if it is in a human male form, see its body,
face, hair, eyes, hands, robe, all, as clearly as you can. See yourself
in front of and facing your Deity, in a sitting, standing, or
prostrating position. Visualize yourself covered with many, many layers
of ultra fine energy, much like the layers of skin on an onion. Each of
these layers were created by the process of labeling your actions as
sins. In reality, nothing you’ve ever done has been either “good” or
“bad”. They have just been things that occurred in your life. If they
could be labeled or judged, what they would be are opportunities to
appreciate your universal identity and oneness with the divine.
Misinformation and inappropriate conditioning has caused you to have the
illusion that you have sinned by your physical, mental, or emotional
actions and have acquired layers of negative energy that now cover and
soil your pure Real Self.
Realize that with every breath you receive, the Highest Power,
your Deity, sends you forgiveness and blessings. Know that every
interaction you have had with anyone else that you may have thought
caused them to suffer, had the potential to help them become a stronger
person and evolve in consciousness. Most importantly, acknowledge that
not everything you were conditioned to believe was a sin, was one, and
that the conditioning itself may have been the sin.
See your Deity remove your guilt and convert your so-called
sins into love. Visualize your guilt coatings melting off and the
forgiveness and blessings of the Divine cleansing and healing the wounds
and pain they caused. As they peel off, you may remember specific
things that you have been carrying within your subconscious. Witness the
events and the suffering they represent fade away and dissolve forever.
As the final layers are peeled away, you realize that there is
nothing left within and thus no separation from the Deity who is all
powerful, present infinitely and eternally, all knowing and all love.
Just like a bird that has escaped its shell, with no more guilt to bind
you, you are forever free to soar the heavens and swim in the universal
ocean of bliss. And live happily ever after.